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Friday, 31 December 2010

  • deeep

    Am I creative or is it just insanity

    Am I free or is it just a dream

    Am I even who I think I am?

    Behind the towers I put in front of me, are thoughts that cant get out

    And not knowing who is who because

    which is right?

    which is the true feelings

    which is disgused

    What do I even feel How do I know which is real

    Lied to myself to many times

    this is injurious...

    Who I am is not who iv been

    Im still an innocent.  

Tuesday, 22 June 2010

  • Believe

    Don't ever stop dreaming.. our dreams are what keeps our hope and our
    spirit alive! It doesn't matter how impossibly difficult they may seem
    to achieve, know that you already have all you need inside you to
    succeed, all you have to do is BELIEVE!!!




Tuesday, 23 February 2010

  • Happiness is something that comes naturally. Make happiness become you.
    You can be happy everyday, you just have to let life take its course but work with it
    God put you on your path for a reason. And all the hardships in life just make you stronger
    At times it may be hard to handle...but God never puts to much on you where you cant
    handle anything. God knows we have strength within, so he is playing a game with us. To see who is built to prove to him that we can use our strength to live. He gave us this game...so play it
    and win it.


Friday, 19 February 2010

  • Alright now...
    I am doing okay. I feel frustrated and pissed off. And i know i shouldnt be...but i am. Things are just really getting me. And this one situation that just wont lay off me. Its my friend...and all her "problems". someone just save me. i really do not know what to do anymore. im glad that there is abreak with us....for months :) so right now i feel pretty much ok and happy.
    All the things you do
    and all the things you say
    piss me off and annoy me too
    you act as life is all play
    your an immature bitch
    and you have changed in a bad way
    i cant do this anymore
    and no one understands me on how this is sore
    your fucking actions make torn
    my mind is in a state of confusion
    and no one can see how i feel, or how this is all a fucking game
    all you do is the same fucking thing
    and im sick of it
    and how you act towards me,
    if things dont change quickly
    then im done
    im done with it all
    i need my life to go well
    and your a negative part in my life right now
    you dont understand shit about a friendship

Saturday, 19 December 2009

  • I struggle to breath,
    struggle to survive.
    There is only one way,
    I bleed to know I'm alive.

    The pain they have caused over the years
    is too much to let go.
    The flashbacks and memories are terrible,
    you don't even know!

    You all say it's better
    when I talk out my feelings,
    but God knows
    that is no type of healing.

    The scars on my body
    let me know I made it through that day.
    And I know you want me to stop,
    but I don't see a way.

    The relief is too great,
    the blood is too grand
    to step away
    and never again put that blade in my hand.

    Maybe one day I will be strong,
    but right now it's not possible.
    I want to be better,
    but I am not able.

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